Where does contentment and self- fulfillment lie?...

This question popped into my head as i was having a conversation with lil Becky...

That poor girl has been having it tough...

Hope things get better for her...

& now i ponder...

I am DEFINITELY not contented...

& why is that so?...

I feel that i have yet to achieve something in my life...

I want to bring glory to Father God...

I want to prove my parents wrong in their judgements...

Have so much to do....

& yet here i am lazing away...

Rotting half my life, falling into temptation's trap...

It's time i really decided on what i want...

& how do i go about achieving it...

Before it's too late...

And i start wishing that i could turn time back...

Anyway, people would be wondering why did i upload a photo of lil Vinesha...

On Saturday, was the lil one's baby naming ceremony...

She looked so pretty....

I dont know why, but there is really an attractive factor about this lil sweetheart...

Everyone agrees with me...

She has this pull such that when someone sees her, they immediately fall in love with her...

The girls did a good job in their dance...
Food was superb...

The hosts, especially Belle, was really entertaining...

Enjoyed myself quite alot...

I and Jivi got up to a bit of nonsense...

Hehehe, lil secrets there...

Was pissed by a certain person though...

After all that she did, she had the cheek to talk to me...

Moreover, to ask me what's wrong?...

Like WTF!

I dont like you and i dont need a counselling session from you, so just F-off...

Christmas is coming...

& i am starting work tomorrow...

Am going to be so busy from now on...

Haiz...

Gotta start saving lots of money...

Cant wait to go carolling and do up the drama...

The guys... After the naming ceremony...

Me and my beloved Didi...

Forever and ever... My annae,uncle and the ever- cutest Chachi-tharan...

A night in Ivy's house works miracles...

Welll...
Close ones should know what happened from this photo...
Finally, we're talking...
It feels like a rock lifted out of my brain...
It feels easier to breathe and all...
Sounds so dramatic right?...
Be in my situation and your'll will know how it is...

Anyway, Ivy's house is becoming a hotspot for everyone...
Was so fun to spend the night there...
Had some wine that was stealthily taken...
My chest started burning like so freakin' badly...
Felt like i was draggin a can o' Barons...
In the end, all of us fell asleep one after the other...
But still enjoyed myself loads...


Now i dont understand why when one turns to be alright the other starts a fight...
Feeeling so irritated...
I dont know what do these people want from me...
One after the other...
They love fighting with me...
Arrrggghhhh....



Threesome idiots...



Kinna like this pic:)

ONEDAYOFBEINGGOODINMYTERMS:)

Felt that i was a real good boy yesterday...
Went to school...
Came back home after that...
Changed and left for the gym...
Sam decided to accompany me after a few squabbles...
It was fun going out just with him after so long...

Had a good time at the gym...
It was only an hour and a half, but i felt that i had a good workout...
Should do this more often...
Going again on Friday morning...
Cant wait...

Following that...
We left and i was home by 8.30...
Couldnt believe that it was me...
But i did not feel bad or anything...
It felt good to be at home after so so long...

Birthdays are coming up soon...
Today's is my dearest Samuel's...
He has been a really nice cousin to me...
And i treasure him loads...
Happy Birthday cousin...
Mom's and Michal's one are next....

Found a job too...
Cant wait to start work...
Really need the cash...
Would really help me...
& i miss a little someone just a little bit..

& so are we walking separate ways?..

I say this all the time...

But who cares?...

It's my blog...

I got all the right for the freedom of speech over here...

CHILDHOOD IS STILL THE BEST!!!

I miss all the fun things i used to do as a small boy...

I didnt have to go through hassles of living for other people...
I could be myself...

I would have been loved by everyone...

& now...

Nothing...

That's what i am...

I just dont understand what is being expected of me...

We are like two people with a rubber band around us...

We can run as far away from each other as possible...

But once the limit has been overridden...

We slam onto each other...

Or break through the bonds of the rubber band...

It's up to us to decide...

No talk...

Nothing...

It felt totally uncomfortable...

Anyway...

Yesterday night was a blast...

Had so much fun doing Hema aunty's birthday...

She was so happy...

Which reminds me that my mom's birthday ain't far away...

Gotta do something for that great superwoman of mine who has been there for me no matter what...

The shield which protects me from all the dangers...

ILOVEMYMOMALLTHETIME:)

Whom am i to turn to now?...

Life has become close to unbearable...
I constantly get the feeling that i am unwanted all the time nowadays...
Nothing seems to improve this strange feeling...
& the factor which makes things worse is my classmates...
I so wish i was in W15G...
My current classmates are as fake as a pllastic snake...
I just feel so left out and irritated in class...

Have been calling people up to make myself feel better...
I just want to have lots of friends who treasure me...
& not play that two- headed game...
Am always sincere to my friends, but this is what i get...

Vicky's Birthday made things worse...
Things started off well...
With a good lunch and loads of surprises...
But as darkness took over...
Things became worse...

A certain someone made me feel even worse...
Constant shooting of vulgarities...
& the constant repetition, 'I dont want you!'...
Am not saying anything more...

& two friends whom i treasured over anyone else disappointed me the most...
After this...
I just dont want to expect anything from anyone...
Am better off leading life alone i guess...
It would help make things better...
Have been missing out on church too...
I have to turn to father god soon...
The only one who can pull me through this period of time...

STARTTRAINING!!!!

Unexplainable

What is happening to the world?...
Arent there any nice humans around?...
Am feeling so fucked at the moment...
Totally pissed with a certain family...
Stop playing your games with me and trying to make me a joker...
Am over these childish games...
Grow up people please...

Have been meeting quite a number of my friends recently...
And am feeling so happy to see these certain peeps like after so long...
Especially Varshini...
We used to be besties...
I'm just happy that our separation isn't distinct even though we hadn't met in a while...

Caught Paranormal Activity...
Was a new experience...
The movie was kind'a interesting and i feel that it plays with your mind...
Second night i am waking up feeling worried...
Should stop picturing stuff...

Exams are totally completed...
Holidays should be coming soon...
& i so feel like hitting the gym today...
Hopefully Samuel is nice to me...
& Christmas is like nearing all too soon...
SAVEUPSOONGURU:)

And finally...
See the photo above?...
People should be wondering...
It's Adrielle Vinesha, my godsister's lil baby...
Finally, got a picture with her...
Her mom was like totally paranoid...
She was like careful Guru, please...
A mom's love & protection is yet the BEST!!!

Finally...

A pierced tongue...
& am so happy that things are better now...
Recently, things have been diverted in a good way...

I am able to look at things in a more calm and cool way...
I also have met up with quite a number of my peeps...
So much fun...
Nothing else beats this...

Having a list'o movies to watch...
But the anticipation to watch New Moon is growing...
Cant wait for the movie to be out...

Guru is having a list of things to buy...
But he's going Broke, Broke and Broke...
And this irritates him so much..
Argh...
Probably a piggy bank would be a good idea...

& temptation plays it's part...

Back to the life of lil old boring ME...
Things have come to a standstill...
Life is getting a lil boring...
Haiz...

School is taking the life outta me...
Getting so tired...
Thank god, my angels in school make the day easier to pass through...
Getting up just about take away all the energy i have...

Stayed over in Thani's house with Jivi and Vicky...
Had a lot of fun...
Had a hell of a time laughing away with Jivi...
We were ransacking Thani's fridge...
Had so much fun...

Am also really happy that i am back with Church...
Things feel better...

& lastly, i really have an issue with this specific person...
I dont want to mention e name...
I am just so confused over this person...
That person is practically one o my besties...
But recently, i am really having doubts...
Is the person my friend cause she is my bestie...
We just dont have that bonding any longer...

LASTLY,IWANTACUTELILPUPPYALLFORMYSELF!!!!
A tongue piercing aint gonna hurt anyone right?...

Breezing past...

& everything happening around me...
Just breezez past...
November is already here...
Shocking...

Friday Left school halfway...
Went to Causeway Point...
Got something for the lil one...
Then proceeded to Sham's house to see her...
The lil one was just so beautiful...
& that was the first time i heard a few weeks old baby giggling...
It was just so nice...
God Bless and protect her:)

On Saturday went to support Sashi at the Nakshatra 09...
First show is RP that i am attenidng...
Was really fun...
Meetup with a lot of people that i have not seen in a while...
A sudden gathering was really fun...
Took quite a number of pictures too...
The show was really great...
& Sashi did a good job...

Sunday came with my sister's 21st cum Deepavali Celebration...
My house was a mess...
Invited quite a number of friends...
& Thani gave me a surprise...
She ganged up with my family to shock me...
My darling looked so gorgeous...
After so long seeing my family...
As a whole..
& not forgetting the dear friends who came...
Thanks so much guys...
:):):)

FEELINGSODRAINED!!!!