Ticking away...

Time has been running really fast!
Before we realise it, new year would be greeting us...
A whole new start...
A change...
& i just hope that the coming here would bring everyone more goodness...
I want things to go right for me for the coming year...
& if it does not, i will make it go my way!...

This year has brought me through many tidal waves...
I have been pulled into the deepest ends of the sea...
and yet have also resurfaced at the top...
I am going to leave all bad things behind...
and am going to look at things in a different perspective...

New Year coutdown would be in Church...
Following that, would be GROUPMEETUP!
Yippee!...
Cant wait to see all my mates...
Gonna be like so super fun with them...

Pay-Day!

Woke up at like 3pm and i was like OMG!
After a big hassle, ended up at Outram with Sangee and Indra...
Collected my pay and it was way beyond expectations...
Was totally happy and satisfied!
There was just this feeling where i was thinking how good would it be without working today...

However, sadly me and Sangee took the train to Orchard...
Michal arrives late!
& we end up getting sent home with no deduction of cash!...
Next thing we know, we end up at Bugis!
With three tickets to Sherlock Holmes...
Did a bit of shopping and i'm still not broke!
Yeah!...

Caught the movie and i felt that it was a really good movie...
Worth the money and the props and climax is really good...
Two thumbs up for this movie!
Go catch it peeps...
Nice...

& once again...
You do this to me...
What did i do?...
I really dont understand...
& people, this aint about my love life!!!

I promised to upload pictures so there...

More on FB!

Christmas Visitings:)

Christmas this year has been a blast!

So many pictures have been taken...

Yet none are uploaded yet...

Soon soon...

Have been blessed abundantly this Christmas...

Did so many things...

Went to so many houses...

First time carolling...

Had loads and loads of fun!
& mostly, i was with all my loved ones...

On the 23rd, went Carolling with e JLC members...

It was my first time doing this...

Was a really interesting yet enjoyeable time...

Went from house to house singing carols...

& not forgetting pigging out at every house...

Started at 5pm and ended the next day at about 7am...

Got home...

Slept like a log till 4.30 and started bustling...

Got dressed and left to meet Michal and Kumaran annae...

Was a long time later that i saw him and i really missed him!...

We were walking around woodlands waiting for two princesses to reach...

Finally they came...

Started cracking to Deepan's house...

Was quite fun there...

Left at about am and headed to Sangeetha's place...

& yeap...

Got a nice wallet:)...

Woke up today and took a cab home...

Once again got dressed and left for my visitings...

So many houses to cover...

Was jumping from house to house...

Really enjoyed at Jordan's, Rebecca's and Michal's house...

Thanks so much guys...

Your'll really made my Christmas...

Fotos would be uploaded soon...

And tomorrow i will be seeing Vicky!...

Yippeee....

Town, here i come:)

& the fever has started!...

Feels so good to have the Christmas spirit flying all around you!

I just feel Merry thinking about Christmas:)

Have been doing quite a bit of stuff...

Rushing around here and there to get quite a bit for my Drama...

I went to Masquerade at Arab Street and got my costume done for my role(Joseph)...

Was loads of fun in the shop...

We were like messing around with the clothes there...

An avalanche of photos would be coming soon...

Went to get Vettaikaaran tickets...
And boy, were we lucky!...

Got our tickets...

Went for the show...
& i was right once again...

Same story, bad song scenes, borderline pass...

Disappoinment even though Anushka was hot!

Performance went well today...

Had quite a bit of support...

& i guess i played out my role well...

Loved my costume...

& i think everyone deserve pats on their backs...

Carolling was a bit bad though...

However, i have to admit that i had my fun!

Lastly, i finally have saved enough to get my Christmas shopping done!

Orchard, here i come!...

I also got myself a mask to wear...

Christmas just makes me feel a little more alive...

Forcing problems away from my mind!

Yippee...

:):):)

BESTFRIENDSAREFOREVERANDARELWAYSMEANTTOBE!

Just moving!

Life has been just moving in a rapid flow...

It's not getting worse or anything...

But just moving in a steady track...

Work, home, drama prac, Sangee & company...

This has become my life...

Jiviya and I...

We are no more like how we used to be...

Even when she sees me, she chooses to turn away...

Talk to someone else...

Pretend i dont exist...

Which really gets to my head!...

First time i wrote out her name straight on this blog!...

I dont understand why you are doing this to me...

Church isn't how it used to be...

I dont feel welcome...

I dont feel like i am with my family in Church!...

These are the few quirks here and there...

Christmas is arriving soon...

& i still need 60 bucks to complete my shopping!...

Ahhh...

Silencing yourself...

I dont know why...
But recently keep getting this hunch...
I keep thinking that i am going to end up all alone...
That thought just scares me...
Therefore, i try to cut away connections...

Went swimming all by myself...
It was a different experience...
Was kinna fun...
& many people would have thought i am a retard because i was talking to myself...
What happens next?!?!...
I end up going to work alone...
I would never ever do this in my sane mind!...

I just feel so lonely nowadays...
And i dont know why...
It aint anyone's fault except for mine...
I am not the usual me...
Everyone keeps telling me that..
I know, i know, i know...

I really cant help myself...
Nor can i do anything...
I can give you a fake smile if you want me to...
Nothing else...
I badly miss Ashwin nowadays...
How i wish he was there to take care of me...
Feeling so miserable...

& he left...

To my one and only all- time favourite brother...
This post is specially dedicated to you...
I've known you for almost two years...
A long stretch of time...
This special word, 'time', made us bond...
We learnt to understand each other...

I would never ever forget each and every single thing you have done for me...
You're really someone so special...
& now...
When i feel that my world is breaking apart...
And i think that i would have to fake every one of my smiles...
You decide to leave...
Or should i say you are made to...

I pray for your safety, protection and enjoy this fun period of life...
Four months is a long time...
& that smile of yours would immediately bring a smile on your face...
& now with tears, and brooding memories...
I bid you farewell...
Take care my brother...
You mean half the world to me...
I'll miss you!

So much to say... Yet words are stuck...

Have given a long gap in between blogging...
This has been due to work and a few other problems...
Am shattered, broken, tired, weak and really sick...
Not blaming anyone this time...
It was my fault...

Have been the cause for so many tears...
I dont know how i am going to forgive myself...
I have hurt two people and there is no way i can change it...
Nor can i do anything about it...
Time heals all wounds...
And i hope that this is true...

Have been out for three days...
Michal's Birthday wasnt off to a good start, but it ended with a blast...
Will always be there for my lil dear...
Had fun staying out three nights...
I just love having gathering with friends...
It makes me feel whole and not forgetting complete...

19th is coming and we havent completed much stuff yet...
Am going to perform a dance and drama for Christmas...
Ahahaha...
Hope all goes well...
The dance is like totally superb and the drama aint too bad...

& right now...
I just dont wish for anything...
I feel broken...
I know that i should not be saying this as i am the one who started this whole shit...
I hurt so many people and i should have thought earlier...
But NO!!!
I've always been selfish...

I just want time to be alone...
All alone...
Maybe this loneliness might show me how to treasure people better...
Feeling so down and disturbed...