So much to say... Yet words are stuck...

Have given a long gap in between blogging...
This has been due to work and a few other problems...
Am shattered, broken, tired, weak and really sick...
Not blaming anyone this time...
It was my fault...

Have been the cause for so many tears...
I dont know how i am going to forgive myself...
I have hurt two people and there is no way i can change it...
Nor can i do anything about it...
Time heals all wounds...
And i hope that this is true...

Have been out for three days...
Michal's Birthday wasnt off to a good start, but it ended with a blast...
Will always be there for my lil dear...
Had fun staying out three nights...
I just love having gathering with friends...
It makes me feel whole and not forgetting complete...

19th is coming and we havent completed much stuff yet...
Am going to perform a dance and drama for Christmas...
Ahahaha...
Hope all goes well...
The dance is like totally superb and the drama aint too bad...

& right now...
I just dont wish for anything...
I feel broken...
I know that i should not be saying this as i am the one who started this whole shit...
I hurt so many people and i should have thought earlier...
But NO!!!
I've always been selfish...

I just want time to be alone...
All alone...
Maybe this loneliness might show me how to treasure people better...
Feeling so down and disturbed...