The Ups & Downs!

& She'll always be my Bestie!

I Love You, Jiviya Raj.

You'll never know how much you mean to me.

Forever & Ever.

Haha.

Some things seem to be good while some's still going bad.

I've got a job thanks to Jivi.

Working together with Ash annae, Jivi & Preetz can be loads of fun.

& Marina Bay Sands is good.

Dont really fancy being a Banquet waiter, but what can i do?

Need the cash.

I've come to realise one thing.

Thou people say that friends cant be trusted and all,

I love my people alot.

Jiviya, Preeta, Ash, Tash, Vicky, Sangee, Didi, Bunny, Chicken Lil, Jaan, Sashi, Jolene, Alvin, Turca, Murali, Uvanneh!

These people mean a lot to me.

Sorry if i missed out names.

These people love me with their heart.

Though i get scolded here and there, disturbed and stuff.

I know i'm loved and life without these people is unimaginable.

Sadly, i wished my Family had a much better bonding.

If only, i could have my loving family back together.

Everything would be much better.

But, that's one thing that's least likely to happen.

Had a really fun church outing, trip to Pasir Ris Beach.

Badly wanted to go to the beach and it was fulfilled in the end.

Enjoyed myself so much.

Cycled with PF from one end of Pasir Ris Park, to almost the other end.

Had so much fun, with my fav sitting spot and the maze and all.

The games were fun too, with all the nonsense happening.

& Lastly, Adrielle, was a dear.

She stroked me and allowed me to carry her and she even giggled.

Yessaaa.

Today, collected pay with Jivi and waited for Tash and Roy to join us.

Headed over to Far East Plaza.

Got Suspenders and a head set for myself.

And i really pigged out today.

I ate and ate, but still wasnt filled.

A Doughnut, Chicken Rice, Fries, Mutton Briyani, Fish Cutlet, Cookie, Honey Bourbon Chicken Sandwich, Maggi Goreng.

Filled!

I Miss you as a whole!

I miss you so much!

So fucking much, more than i would let on.

& more than how much you would ever know.

But you dont seem to bother.

You never seem to call, unless it's a favour.

There are points when you call, but i have other plans.

Cause your calls are totally random.

I miss having late night meetups with you.

Sneaking out of our houses.

Everyday meetings.

Talking about everything under the sun.

Going out here and there, having so much of fun times.

Laughing our ass off, potluck lunches.

Sudden surprises.

I Miss Every Single Thing About You.

Cause You Are No More You!

Couldnt believe that you had to choose to quarrel with me over a FB status.

I've got nothing else to say.

Best, split into two directions...

New Friends:)

New Friends are just so nice to have.
& that is what that has been happening.
Have made quite a number of friends.

Friday went over to see Mummy.
Was Glad to see that woman, and when she saw me, she gave me that wide smile.
Was Happy.
Spent good time with her.
Got to see Chicken Lil too and i dont know why, i really like him alot.
His moonji is enough to brighten someone's day.

Left to meet Tash, Sangee, John, Preetz and Ash annae.
Was waiting for John to drive the van to BB.
He took long enough.
Jumped into the van and headed off to Changi.
Was a fast trip & in no time, we met Sham.
That poor fella was so drunk already.

Got something to eat.
& the rest of the Vetaikaaran group came.
Everything seemed so awkward and funny.
It was like two separate groups at first.
Then, once all of us were introduced, things got better.
Friendly conversation seemed to be flying around.

Walked to OCH and was dragging down a liquor bottle on the way, Absolut Vodka!
Started raining halfway and we got stuck at the busstop.
Ended up talking shit and all and then, started walking to OCH.
Aetos security had taken over the place and so we had to go through the hill into the place.
& My, my, my.
The place looked so different.
Considerably clean, and the walls all were white!
Ended up scaring Tash and we were running all over the place, laughing our heads off.
Then, the police came.
They were shining torches all over.
& we were like playing terrorist game with them.
It was so so fun.
The way we hid and ran about, away from the police.

Walked back to the pondo & finished up 2 bottles of Chivas Regal.
Had a lot of fun and i enjoyed the night with all of them.
Sham (V), HariBoy (V), Sara (V), Vicky (V), Tash, Sangee, John, Ash, Preetz!:D

Headed back to BB and tried getting to sleep to no avail.
Ended up meeting Vicky at his place at night.
Was so happy to see that Fucker.
He has been missing like so long.

Bought King Roberts Scotch.
Sat down and once again it started.
Hehehe.
We ended up speaking about Ghost stories.
Till my hair stood at it's ends and he had goosebumps all over.
Left in the early morning.
Sangee and I was like super sleepy.

Headed home and i was flat for like 12 hours!
Totally shocked.
Woke up and i had this really weird feeling to eat Old Chang Kee...
Short stroll to Westmall and was nibbling away.

& I'm On Time For School Today! YESSSAAA!

The Hate & Love Nature

Everything's in the way i think.

If i look at it from a negative perspective, then it goes bad.

Shall see through light even through hard times.

I really feel that the word 'Friendship' is being misused nowadays.

Why are there quarrels, misunderstandings and fights between everyone?

Why so much of dislike or hatred for one another?

Why can't we learn to Forgive, Forget and love each other?

Human nature is prone to Hate rather than to Love.

Can't everything revert back to how it was.

I am like stuck in the middle of everything.

& just cause of that, am really worried that people might think that i am supporting a certain side.

I just dont understand what wrong i did.

Why must people talk to me in a rude manner when i aint involved in any problems?

I have decided to just go my way & people who want me, i shall be with them.

I dont wish to feel uncomfortable or unwanted anywhere.

I really want to be happy with my loved ones.

Every single one means a lot to me, but in the end, FTW, cause people think that these are just words printed with no meaning behind them.

Gotta go to school tomorrow once again.

Am gonna look at waking up for school in a positive way too.

That would be of much help for me!

& I cant wait for Friday Night!

(Ganesh annae, Lavernia akka, Preeta, Ashok annae, John, Sangee, Jivi, Michal & more)

Counting down! (Yipppeeee!)

The Absolute Mess!

& that will be my life.
An absolute mess.
I dont know what to make out of life.
& what i'm supposed to do.
There are days that i feel that i want to let go of everything and walk away.
But i cant.
I gotta be strong and face every single thing.

1)I aint going school properly. Skipped countless days.
2)Wasting my life away, with no motive of whatsoever.
3)Not been able to sort things out.
4)Problems with clique and others.
My list could drag on further.

I really have to start sorting things out and working my way through.
Before i end up as a, DISASTER!

What i've been up to recently:
- Had a hell of a time at Club Maya with Vicky, Jivi and Sangee (Wild Night)
- Am dancing for a show on Mother's Day! (Fun, Fun, Fun!)
- Celebrated John's Birthday. Caught Sura & ended up looking for wrong people at wrong alleyways!
- Chicken Little's Birthday, seemed like a blast, but the ending was a real BLAST!

I MISS JOLENE!
I wish she was beside me 24/7.
I could talk to her till the end of time and i could go on and on after that too.
& I so miss Jiviya.
It is never the same anymore, sadly:(