You will never understand...

I seriously didnt understand what was happening yesterday...
I felt that my whole world was spinning on all ends...
All i can tell you is that i am super disappointed in you...
:(

I seriously dont understand what it is that we have to fight every single day!
I'm tired, really tired of fighting...
I feel so weak and so lost...
The way you spoke to me...
Hung up on me continuously...
I just cant bring myself to think that it was you who was speaking...

Or let me think, was someone else instigating you?...
I really have no clue of whatsoever...
I just dont understand...
After scolding me so much and making me call you continuously...
& when finally i give up...
You start messaging me to call you...

I mean i am not trying to justify myself...
The only thing i am trying to tell you is that stopping you from doing something negative= ruining your life?...
I dont seem to understand how that works...
I can never be your Mr.Right Guy...

Hearing to Jivi's voice yesterday just made me break down...
After so long, i cried...
I couldnt force back my tears...
Disappointing, every one of them disappointed me...

Thanks so much for Yesterday night Jiv...
Without you i would not have been able to pull through...
Was really cheered up after our little sneak meetup:)

TOMORROW= DAYOUTWITHJOLENE:)