Whom am i to turn to now?...

Life has become close to unbearable...
I constantly get the feeling that i am unwanted all the time nowadays...
Nothing seems to improve this strange feeling...
& the factor which makes things worse is my classmates...
I so wish i was in W15G...
My current classmates are as fake as a pllastic snake...
I just feel so left out and irritated in class...

Have been calling people up to make myself feel better...
I just want to have lots of friends who treasure me...
& not play that two- headed game...
Am always sincere to my friends, but this is what i get...

Vicky's Birthday made things worse...
Things started off well...
With a good lunch and loads of surprises...
But as darkness took over...
Things became worse...

A certain someone made me feel even worse...
Constant shooting of vulgarities...
& the constant repetition, 'I dont want you!'...
Am not saying anything more...

& two friends whom i treasured over anyone else disappointed me the most...
After this...
I just dont want to expect anything from anyone...
Am better off leading life alone i guess...
It would help make things better...
Have been missing out on church too...
I have to turn to father god soon...
The only one who can pull me through this period of time...

STARTTRAINING!!!!