Why so???

WHY?WHY?WHY?
Why am i feeling so lost nowadays?
I just dont know what i want from life...
I feel so jealous, angry and scared...
Why is this happening to me?...

I've never ever been like this before...
I feel so strangled...
I feel trapped...
I dont feel happiness that i used to feel...
Just hate everything!!!

The fotos are here as promised:

With e Beautiful women... :)

After e performance with cousin...

Me and Vicku syg...

A woman with a gem for a heart...

FATHER GOD GUIDE ME AND SHOW ME THE WAY!!! I NEED YOU:(